Had a birthday dinner with relatives just now and I enjoyed myself. Thanks the tan-ny cousins for that wallet ( god! I finally got a wallet! :D ) and horny ass and weijia kor for the shirt :D me like it. Anyway, I just want to thank horny ass again, because of her, the wish that I have since young that I thought would never come true came true and for the first time, very first time, it was with him. Tyvm. Know how much i appreciate it.

Lastly, just wanna apologized to br and j. and thanks br for all the effort [:

Dearest E, it has been seven years. Though it was one-sided all along but this seven years has put my love for you in numerous tests. Every phrase of my life, whenever I tried to let you go, things would happened and made me give in. Sometimes it makes me wonder whether it was a hint from god that I should not let go or it was just a bloody trap from life, making sure I suffer before I could let go but I still fall for it every time.

Remember how you gave up your bed for me, remember the times being near to you especially during d trip, remember how happy you were when everyone celebrated your birthday makes me happy too. Second time, the second time you gave something to me and I treasure it as the most important stuff even if I know how dumb it was to do that when it does not matter to you at all.

So near yet so far. I can only stand at a point looking at you. No matter how much I wanna reach out my hand, I have to hold back. I will only look at you till today, and from tomorrow onwards, I am determined to move on. It is going to be tough, as much as not many would understand. It is not something that not seeing you every day, avoiding and ignoring you or not looking at you would help. It requires determination. so much of it.

I have never regretted everything that I had done for you, never regret choosing this choice. But the only regret was not having the chance to put in my everything for you, know how much I am willing to give in.

It is all too late. No matter how hard it is, life still goes on. I have spent 7years, 7years of waiting miracles to happen and dropping tears for you.. I am not waiting anymore. Know how reluctant I am.

C. I have to remember we are only c. always have been c.

有一种爱叫做放手.
Long last with her. you will be happy.

Reality is cruel. I will work hard. [: